i'm back again..

10pm now. i still cant move my hand away from the keyboard.

hais.. i dunno wad to do.

sleep? cant sleep. smoke? smoke alot le.

wad else ne? erm..

i dunno . hais.

listening to "wo zhen de shou shang le" now. quite emo now. haha

"shi ni bian le" "shi ni bian le"

let me tell my reader a story k.

let me think ar. wait ar.

there was this girl, she jus broke up with someone she love the most.

so much so, she wanted to die. cox in her mind,

she really cant live without him.

and so, she went to this old beach. with a rope and a chair in her hand.

she WANTED TO commit SUIcide.

and so, after half an hour, she finally found a good spot. she throw the rope up to the

tree branch and tied a dead knot.

with tears flowing on her face, she rounded the rope ard her head.

jus was about to kick the chair away,

an old man walking past and stop her.

he walk toward her and asked her why she wanted to do this stupid stuff.

after a while, the man smile at her and say,

"i was a millionaire a year ago, but now i left with jus a broken hse. if,

i'm were like u, i would had die a few hundred time alr. wad actually that make

me still this strong is that, when i wasn't a millionair, do i still live on as normal. yeah! and u?

miss, may i know how do u live when u haven know this bf? living as normal also?"

after hearing it, the girl sliently walk away, wiping the tear away.

..

finished! lols. hope u all enjoy ya.

take care

Blogged @ 6/30/2009 09:58:00 PM

why? why i get this ans?

hais.

i dun wan tis ans.

i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan.

i dun like to share also.

i can't imagine. and i can't go and tink.

a thought of that will jus melt my heart away.

hais.

i shouldnt ask at the fers place ba.

then everything will be solve.

but!!!!

ahhhhhhhhh!!

my heart is crying again.

i'm here to shang xin, but why am i still that stress each day.

let me ask my heart again.

i think i nid a very long time this time rd.

slient! slient! slient pls.

i wanna be alone. offing my hp le.

dun wanna see anymore sms as for now.

Blogged @ 6/30/2009 06:06:00 PM

farewell to u. wont be back to msg u. sorry if my msg got mislead u anything or wad.

didnt mean anything.

that's why , to prevent unpleasant thing to happen, i'm here to say farewell..

i dunno wad i'm doing is right or not.

chevy, though we know each other not long, indeed got that little feeling for u.

especially that moment when u give me a cor so sudden when i'm about to board the plane.

felt so warm. thankx.

take care all.

Blogged @ 6/21/2009 11:12:00 PM

In the afternoon i saw her sms, hais. dunno why. i rush to the canteen to get a

phone card to cor her. i dunno why.

hope is jus a frenx worry.

when the line get though, i dunno what to ask her also.

Maybe a simple word is enough le ba.

i dun wanna have a misunderstanding.

but if her bf really mind, i can stop everything on the spot.

cox now she's belong to him.

it's true i'm jus nothing animore.

today the wind is so big, i stand in the middle of the wind, thinking.

thinking and hoping that the wind can bring me to a place

where i can find another me.

the brand new one.

i'm tired of this old dominic le.

useless person i am.

failure in everything.

wo yao qu zao zao wo de zhi ji le.

everyone have their goal in themself. but once the goal is unreachable,

one will be lost. i'm lost right now.

but i'm not those cant that lost their goal and give up their life,

i've grown up. i'm finding my another goal now. though

it may take a longer time, i also wont give up so easily.

i'm weak in my emotional and heart, but i'm those kind who is very determination when i have a goal on hand. a failure is just a a fall. a fall is just about bleeding. so, just wipe off the bleed, and climb up. the process of climbing up is tough. i admit it. ya. very. :) .

but one thing i realise in it, is that, each time the fall is, each time it's much

easlier to climb up. lols..

word are always so easy to say. dunno why. i like to say alot, but actually deep in my heart,

i know most of it, i cant do it de.. hahahaha.

k la.. write so much le.

take care to those my reader.

thankx for reading ya.

be back soon.

Blogged @ 6/21/2009 05:19:00 PM

in taiwan now. typhoon coming tml. was it able to blow away the old me and bring back the new one? i really don't know what to do now. it's jus simply too complicated.

especially aft that talk with her.

2 story. hais.

but nevertheless, who i believe, i won't turn back anymore.

simply jus much for me to handle le.

hope u will think about wad i have said.

stable down, treat him as ur bf with u HEART. pls. show it to me u

are not a play gal k. dun spoilt the last good image of u.

as wad i have promise myself,

we can be jus friends.

take care.

bye all..

Blogged @ 6/20/2009 08:50:00 PM

today is my last day before i left for taiwan. time for me to find myself back le.. this 1year 3mth

i have make myself fallen into one big well. now i'm trying my very best to climb up.

pian ti lin shang de wo, though

it's hard , i will still continue to try.

franking, in the PAST rls, i nv betray her b4. still rmb i say about my retribution.

that's teach me to be honest. but the more honest i am, leads to more and more misunderstanding. maybe from the start, i shouldnt be that honest. thing may be different now.

3wk in taiwan, a person told me that she will wait for me to come back, but haha.

everything was jus a JOKE. a joke indeed, and yet i take it so seriously.

lols.

wad a fool i am. but love is blind.

i dun blame her. really. i'm not angry with her.

u're right. is me who smears up this rls.

though the memories is alot alot for me,

i got to learn to let go now.

on sunday,0100hrs. i nv and i do not know how to face u.

and here, let me finish my word.

"xiao s, u must have your every reason in yourself for not giving me the chance and be with him, deep in my heart, i wish u and him can be happy than us. and it will be. try not to smoke too much le. it's not bringing any good for your unborn baby. dun think we will meet up nor talk again le. jus hope, u are always that cheerful like the pic that we took with my phone. goodbye and take care"

Blogged @ 6/17/2009 02:57:00 PM