♥ Sunday, January 28, 2007
Ytd jus celebrate my advance birthday with my "gang". thankx for accompany me the whole nite and taking care of me. thankx.
Blogged @ 1/28/2007 05:09:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, January 09, 2007
why cant the start of sch be a happy day for me. why everything and every memories had to come back to me.. already i thought i had recover for a few week. but jus one thing, every of these thought jus crashed it into pieces.
i'm back to square one.!!!!! omg. i didn't go sch today. i'm hidding away from it. my soul wanted to hide itself too.. i'm hidding away from all the fact,reality and her.
why cant a new year jus be a brand new year for me. a new start will do too.. but it didn't. the me now is getting even worst. even more to think of her. i dun wish to bother the grp. the jit tiao leng grp. wat i can do is jus purely been the unreal side of me. bluffing away with my smile,laughter. cracking a joke which i won't even laugh too.
it's so hard.so hard.forcing myself to put a smile on my face.
bye.
Blogged @ 1/09/2007 02:31:00 PM
♥ Wednesday, January 03, 2007
it's jus a normal day today. but i jus do not know why i come here and blog. so long nv blog liao. and my birthday is coming le wor.. i dunno whether it will be a happy or sad birthday for me. i jus noe something, i cant be with someone whom i love to celebrate with. but nvm, my bro n sis are ard for me. as i say, they managed to save my 0.01% of my soul. or else i will be jus completely dead.
last few day, we went to vivo for our countdown. then we drank there.. our vodka. and dun nid to say, i'm the first to get drunk. i dun wan to get drunk. i only jus hope everythin could jus be forgotten even it would be jus a short while. but i can't. the moment the firework are carry out, everything jus appear in my mind. the first day we watch firework together.. jus purely every memories jus flash back. tt moment, i really feel like crying. but i noe i got to control. i cant let the whole grp moody too.. and so, i manage to control.
it's a new year for me now. would it be a better one? i really dunno. and i dun wan to noe. i can say, i'm tired. i'm really tired. i'm only left with 0.01%chances. i dun wan anyone to spoilt it. includng her. jus let me keep it and cheat myself.
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oNlY if We beLieVe, Wat We ArE wAiTiNg FoR wIlL CoMe TrUe
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is it true? i think it's true. but i got nth to believe in myself and her. it's has been so long. as i noe, i'm the only one thinking of her and not her thinking of me. in my journey of life, i always like to stop myself and look back . and for her, she only noe how to move and look forward.
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i got to stop.
Blogged @ 1/03/2007 01:52:00 PM
