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i can say i nv regret being with her for this period of time. the only regret was i nv notice something. the love for me had gone before we break. something started to change few day before we break, but i nv even notice it. omg.. dominic.. are u stupid or wat wor.. i dun wish to say wat it is. cox i finally noe now. wat i suspect in the past is true.

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wat u have done to me this time round, i'm v disappointed but one thing i can bear in mind is that.. i nv dui bu qi u even after we break. kevin told me this. i may be seen as the loser in reality but in the god world i'm the winner. cox i already done all my best but is the someone who do not know how to zhen xi.

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sorry fion for scolding her why didn't she tell me eariler. i know she dun wanna me to feel even sad. but i was too shock too hear the news. that's why..sorry wor.. sistax always.

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a story of lao shu and mao. one day lao shu told mao "i love you". mao shouted and tell lao shu to go away. lao shu then cryed and run away. who knows after tt mao also cry. lao shu and mao are not meant to be frenx even. cox of the past history. and the moral of the story is. there is a love call "give up". loving someone doesn't mean u have to be with her or him.. it's yours mean it's yours..

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"my frenx keep telling me, that if u really love her, u got to set her free"

this was a lyric from "heaven knows". don't u think it's true.. er.. i finally come to the conclusion. I WILL LISTEN NOW..

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bb.. sheepy.. it's time for me to go. cox there's someone who taking care of you le. hope he is someone who u long looking for..

Blogged @ 10/25/2006 07:28:00 PM

it's been 12 days since me and her break. all the fate ba.. even how much u wanted it to change, all is predestined le.. no one can change it.

as wat one will say, bu yao wei le yi ke su , fan xia zhen ge shen ning. so wat am i going to do when i already treat her as the shen ning instead of the tree..

many ppl say me stupid to think of her even now she is enjoying herself. but i jus can't stop thinking of it lorx.. i noe i'm stupid to do so lox. but can anyone put themselves in my shoe ne.. no one will noe the feeling unless they themselves put theirs in my shoe.

Blogged @ 10/22/2006 01:04:00 PM

wHy aM i stiLlInG ThInKiNg Of Her?

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i thought i already promise my frenx not to think about her le ma.. she's enjoying herself now lea.. but why am i feeling sad sad all the while ne.. wat are the way to solve this problem? i really dunno..

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this are some quote which says about my feeling now!

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True love is blind, it sees with the heart, not with the eyes.

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The worst kind of love is loving someone with all you have and not getting any in return

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Broken hearts can be mended

Shattered tears can be dried

The true love can dissapear

All pictures can be hidden or burned

But what do you do, For the pain that never goes away

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Was I stupid for trusting her when she said she loved me? Or am I stupid now, for loving her even after she hurt me?

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It's amazing how someone can break your heart, yet you still love them with all the little pieces

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Sometimes being strong just isn't an option

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I smile to prevent the tears from falling down my face

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I don't miss you, i miss the person i thought you were.

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"love is a four letter word... just like hurt"

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Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?

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The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you

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Smiling has never hurt so much

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The worst feeling isnt being alone or lonely.its being forgotten by someone you could never forget!!!

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I changed so much for you and you were the only 1 who didnt notice anything changed

Blogged @ 10/19/2006 07:34:00 PM

last week de today, i have done the stupiest thing ever in my life.. in the beginning, i tell myself i must go and wait. sms/call is not sincere at all de.. only action will prove whether are u sincere or not. but now. i came to know a lot or thing. it's like a little a little of nail piercing though my heart..

u can enjoy urself now. but believe me. in the world there's retribution. how u left me was exactly the same of how i left iris.. 31 year old guy really love u de ma.. i nv meant to doubt his love for u.. but u urself be smart a bit.k? even though we are not together le and neither m i smses/call u le. but still couldn't bare it to see u get hurt lorx.. so.. take good care.

there are two guy to choose from .. but u choose him.. it may sound reasonable ba.. cox the decision will nv be made by other ppl de.. all is from u.. so, dun ever regret wat u have done. i can't get into my usual life is not becox i still love u but is becox i can't put down so fast of our memories.. memories are meant to be kept and lock.. but for u, maybe every guy to u is a key to access ur memories and let ur memories fly off jus like tt..

To enjoy urself with cars,money,hse at this age? er. u can ask my sis and even her frenx.. how they get cheated by 30++ year old guy.. u may say he is not tt kind of ppl.. yeah.. that's wat my sis told me when they were with them in the fers few week. but in the end, the answer will still be the same..how old u wanna marry? 18 or 19.. if like tt, maybe i got nth to say. but for ur career wise..u say u wanna get marry at 27,28.. how old will ur bf be le..40 or 41.. i won't stop u to be with him and i will nv do it. but jus wanna u to think. nv meant to ask u to come back to me too..

one last thing. any thing happen dun be to afraid to say it out. Fion will be there de. trust her..

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*really nv meant to say ur bf. last but not least, remember wat u wan to save for ur marriage, dun becox of one single thought , spoilt ur whole life. remember it's been hard for me to cure ur emotion scar le wor.. dun commit it again.!*

Blogged @ 10/19/2006 07:43:00 AM

hahas.. nth much to sae le.. jus wish u will be more happy with him than me..

two word to added on.. GOOD LUCK!.

dun regret wat u had done jiu hao le..

Blogged @ 10/18/2006 09:07:00 PM

u have done the thing i hated the most in my life.. thankx fion for telling me.

in love, i can really sacrifice for her and love her so much that no other guy had ever done tt to u. but when i hate someone, i will nv in my life forgive u.! this is me.. dominic ho. will nv forgive wat u had done. if ever i forgive u, car! prepare to knock me down.

now then i realise that when i dun trust u sometime, i'm correct wor.. still dare angry last time.. wat a great actor.. dun be a air stewardess lea.. be a actor.. sure many ppl will fallen to ur trick.. lolx..

frenx.. QB frenx too.. prepare for the chaos in class.. dominic is back alive..

Blogged @ 10/17/2006 08:25:00 PM

fifth day le..

i still remember everynite i will tell u wat happen to me in sch or etc.. but now.. it's different le.. blogging is the only place i can share my daily life with le.

today actually sch start at 10pm.. but i meet doug at 7.30am.. hoping to see her. but no fate anymore le.. scare to see her but also got the tension to see her.. omg.. wat is this.. the memories of her walking away from me keep refreshing.. i scare this will happen again.. really scare le..

today, in ms quah lesson. kevin suddenly say " ai ya, must have eaten ai xin zhao chan from kris de la".. becox i didn't eat.. then that moment, i nearly going to cry.. then kevin then noe about the whole thing.. he then apologize.. tears nearly drop lea.. hai~~..

about 1pm, class dismiss le.. we then went to foodfair to slack.. still. i nv eat.. no apettite ba.. then kevin and i take mrt home.. on the way home, kevin console me alot.. thankx ar.. wat a great frenx to have.. kk.. gotten stop here.. be back tml..

Blogged @ 10/16/2006 05:15:00 PM

Blogged @ 10/15/2006 03:14:00 PM

third day le. i'm still thinking of our memories.

so much memoris for jus a short period of 2 mth and 6 days. and she can jus clearly say to me she had no more feeling for me le.. how am i going to respond to her.. treat it that she is lying to me.. i can't.. i treat her word , almost every word v seriously de.. i kept up to my promise to her. maybe is jus a small promise to her ba..

I'm not suppose to love you, I'm not suppose to care, I'm not suppose to live my life, wishing you were there, I'm not suppose to wonder, where you are or what you do, but I can't help it because I'm still in love with you.

I never knew what I had until the first day it wasn't there

Blogged @ 10/14/2006 07:58:00 PM

Blogged @ 10/13/2006 03:10:00 PM

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There was once a guy who is very easily hot-temper and his father came to know about it. one day, his father bought for his a huge wooden block. and many nail and a hammers for him. and his father said to him this ," if ever u felt angry, hit the nail with the hammer on this wooden block.".. and so the guy do so. everytime he gets angry, he will hit the nail on the wooden block.. and so after 2mth and 6days.. this wooden block was full of nail. NOT EVEN A SINGLE BIT of space for him to hit le.. but after 2 mth and 6days, his temper change le. and his father came to know about this AND told him to take out all the nail one by one .. and it took him 8hrs to take out. then this boy realise the wooden block was totally not same le.. it had left a lot of small hole.. this small hole will no longer be mended de le. his hand are hurt after all. bleeding!

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wooden block = the feeling/love that she had for me

hammer = refer to me

nail = the misunderstanding on her and the hurt i had gave her

8hrs = how long i waited for her at the airport jus to ask her to forgive me

hand are hurt = heart broken le

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in summarY, she had no more feeling for me even how much i trust her le.. no point to be with someone who don't love u anymore le rite.. yup. that's why i giving up. of course there will be some tension but i willingly letting her go now. becox she had forget everything we said le. the engagement , future planning abt how we going to live and where to stay, how many baby to have. all is like a dream le. so sad to heard tt.. when she say she had forget everything the moment, i was so disappointed with her.. kk.. End of our story le ba...

Blogged @ 10/13/2006 11:52:00 AM

hi all.. i'm going to genting from today nite till sunday nite wor.. will miss all my frenx de..

hope i'm able to enjoy myself there.. really hope so.. hope i'm able to slp well there.. i haven been sleeping well this few day until i a bit sick sick de.. but who knows.. not even her.. she jus know i'm sick .. but why i'm sick.. she dunno de... no one will ever know de..

k le.. to be back soon..

Blogged @ 10/05/2006 09:55:00 AM

missing u de hunnee!!! miss ur everything.. sob..

Blogged @ 10/03/2006 11:54:00 AM

hee.. this are some of the pic we took this few days.. enjoy.. :X

Blogged @ 10/02/2006 11:56:00 AM

i was having my travel fair at expo.. when suddenly kris told me in the afternoon that she wanna take back her comic from wen hui whom i hate him lotsa.. since he was kris ex.. i shut kris mouth up by saying "it's over for us". she somemore still promise me that she won't meet him de lorz.. in the ltr part of afternoon, she msg me telling me not to leave her and she love me alot, then i realise something was wrong lorz.. she was drunk!!!!! omg.. i didn't even dare to drink behind her back but she did it.. sob.. i was very worried for her lorz.. as she was quite sensitive with it.. i dun care about my work animore lorz.. i jus run away "of course got to tell my manager" and find her immediately lorz... i take one stop from expo cox the cab there was limited, after i alight form one stop from expo, i quickly took a cab and all the way to kris hse.. i lied to her that i was waiting for her at her void deck but actually i was waiting outside her hse. she was blur and drunky look lorz.. then i asked her why u go and buy and drink. she answer me saying why can't she buy and drink.. out of the sudden i asked her who treated u the drink then i realised it's wen hui. my heart suddenly sank into the sea and almost dead le.. i was of course very sad and i walk away from her. she hold on to my leg lorz.. but i still dun care and walk away.. after that, lijune gave me wen hui no after i call her. i found out one more thing. wen hui even send her home lorz.. oh oh.. this time rd wat will i feel and do. i felt v disappointing. even my o level flunk i dun felt this much of disappointment lorz.. i keep walking away from her . walk and walk and she keep chasing me behind.. after about 15min, then we settled down and talk about it.. about wat we say i tink u all should noe.. i keep scolding out wat i felt lorz.. then about 1hr ltr i cooled down le then we he hao again.. hee..

We and one of her cousin went to the singapore dance theatre which is located at explanade. her auntie got her the ticket for a ballet dance performance..after that we went to marina square for some shopping and have our dinner and we ltr on take cab to bedok.. we chatted at the void deck for a while and after that we went to watson as she wanted to buy something for her hong kong training trip.

i didn't sleep well that nite lorz.. i dare not sleep as i was waiting to give her a morning call at 3am and waiting for her call b4 she take the plane. the only time that i can slp well was after 6.30am after she hang up the fone saying she was going to take the plane le.. so sad.. gonna miss her v much lorz.. suddenlly can't get to hear her voice. omg.. i think i write alot le.. gonna stop or else my reader will be angry with me..lolx...

Blogged @ 10/02/2006 09:47:00 AM